How can I help?

How can I help?

I have been hiding for most of my life. 

Because of childhood trauma.

I would prefer to stay home. 

And that helped me to become an artist: all the time spent on my own, drawing, colouring, folding origami, reading, even watching TV.

I discovered that I want to help, I want to make a difference in the world.

But how can I do that if I react to the external world by hiding?

I can’t. 

I couldn’t. 

Now I can. 

Last week I was able to help a lady who fell down in a parking lot. 

I talked to her and I helped her to get back on her feet. 

For the first time in my life.

And for me, this is important. 

Because inside there was this voice saying: I want to help.

But outside, my body was programmed to hide, to fear.

I remember in 2020 when lockdown started, I was supposed to go to an event by Colette Baron Reid. 

It was cancelled, because she couldn’t travel to London, but there was a zoom call instead.

During that call, I had the opportunity to ask her a question. 

And my question was: How can I help?

And I had no voice because of a sore throat.

Her answer was the oracle card called “Mending”: you can help after you sort yourself out.

Now I understand, that I can’t help others from a place of fear. 

And I am so happy that I could help that lady, and now I am out of survival.

It’s like a full circle to the day when my mum helped a man lying on the floor.

You can read that story in my previous blog post “Generosity and ability to give”

 The image is a detail of my original artwork "Love Celestial", that is available on request. Please contact support@unamarz.com for more information.

 

Una Marzorati

unamarz Creations

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