I have been hiding for most of my life.
Because of childhood trauma.
I would prefer to stay home.
And that helped me to become an artist: all the time spent on my own, drawing, colouring, folding origami, reading, even watching TV.
I discovered that I want to help, I want to make a difference in the world.
But how can I do that if I react to the external world by hiding?
I can’t.
I couldn’t.
Now I can.
Last week I was able to help a lady who fell down in a parking lot.
I talked to her and I helped her to get back on her feet.
For the first time in my life.
And for me, this is important.
Because inside there was this voice saying: I want to help.
But outside, my body was programmed to hide, to fear.
I remember in 2020 when lockdown started, I was supposed to go to an event by Colette Baron Reid.
It was cancelled, because she couldn’t travel to London, but there was a zoom call instead.
During that call, I had the opportunity to ask her a question.
And my question was: How can I help?
And I had no voice because of a sore throat.
Her answer was the oracle card called “Mending”: you can help after you sort yourself out.
Now I understand, that I can’t help others from a place of fear.
And I am so happy that I could help that lady, and now I am out of survival.
It’s like a full circle to the day when my mum helped a man lying on the floor.
You can read that story in my previous blog post “Generosity and ability to give”
The image is a detail of my original artwork "Love Celestial", that is available on request. Please contact support@unamarz.com for more information.
Una Marzorati
unamarz Creations